Not the sexiest posts but one of my goals for 2022 is to fin..
Added 2021-12-23 07:12:56 +0000 UTCNot the sexiest posts but one of my goals for 2022 is to finally set up seeing a trauma psychologist. I didn’t really know about these until a few years ago and I never did it because at the time I wasn’t even doing regular cognitive behavioral therapy. I’ve been doing cognitive behavioral therapy again since July 2020 and even just seeing a psychiatrist bi weekly helps me. I had stopped going to therapy about 6 yrs ago and stopped believing they were even helpful but that was because I didn’t connect well or see much of a benefit up until my current psychiatrist and therapist lol. But it just still feels like something is missing. Never been quite enough? They’re much better then who I’ve seen before. Like sure it’s better then not doing therapy at all. But I feel like I need a specialist for trauma. I’m tired of being deeply terrified of people. I’m tired of hiding away in my house and being engulfed by grief and old and new emotions or trauma. I’m tired of not enjoying life. Just because I’m deeply introverted doesn’t mean I need to be this closed off. I believe my mom would want this for me. I think all she ever wanted for me was to be happy.
