Legs spread with my thirsty af mouth open *WIDE*! Come & ge..

Legs spread with my thirsty af mouth open *WIDE*! Come & get it! 😜 Sorry I’ve been a bit slow this week. I’ve made a pretty crazy decision to “quit my day job”. I told my boss on Tuesday & I could see it honestly floored her. Yes, I feel insane right now. I paid 30k for my cosmetology & esthetics licenses. But right now it’s just not working for me. I get paid shit to be stuck at a job & not be able to take on certain movie roles, which surprisingly people are basically throwing at me. Yes, it’s indie work & not Hollywood but if people want to pay me to pretend to be someone else, I’m there. It was a life long dream of mine to act & I never thought it was possible until recently. So why not take the money & run? I have a best friend who is 63. Everyone thinks he’s my sugar daddy or something but he definitely is NOT. 😂 We just connect on a very personal level about tons of stuff & he is my world. But one thing about him is that he went to college for acting. He’s very good. But he was way too scared of failure to pursue acting much out of college. He did a few community theater things but really lost out on performing because of his fear. I don’t want to be like that with anything in my life. If I’m decently good at something that’s fun & creative (like acting) & people are willing to pay me for it, why not just do it??? I hate regrets. I have tons, like everyone. I regret not getting to know my brother as an adult. And not he’s gone. There are no more chances. Well, I think this recent event kinda changed my outlook on somethings. I’m gonna be gone one day too. With my health problems I’ve almost checked out a FEW times! I’m not leaving this earth without getting the best out of life. And if I wanna act in crazy b grade horror movies, BITCH I’M GONNA. Plus, school has been insane lately. I have a huge project due tomorrow that neither me or my one school mate left (everyone else in my class dropped out because the work loud is bananas!) have started. I want to do a weird interpretive dance & tell facts about joints (while moving them) tomorrow. I just need to find the perfect song for this. Ideas? I also have two huge tests tomorrow that I haven’t studied for yet. I do dance in town at Ponytails on Friday but it was terrible. It was so slow that I pretty much sat with these two “hot boy” type dudes all night. They barely tipped but they bought drinks at least. I got sloshed & made only $73!!! WTF. That’s so baaaaaad. Luckily, I did well in Louisville last weekend so it’s fine. But I was so put off by the whole experience that I took Saturday off. I’ve been so exhausted & ran down lately that I couldn’t bare another slow night for less than $100. My Ubers there & back cost $25 too. Plus, there were hardly any girls working on Friday so it felt like I was up on stage every 20 minutes, which wore me out even more. They’re so nice to me at Ponytails but I’m afraid that the previous place (it was another ran down old strip club before the pony franchise bought it & fixed it up), has such a bad reputation that this club may not survive. And I can’t work at XS right now because of reasons to stupid to even go through here. Lucky Lady would be an option but they think I’m a snob because of some misunderstandings from back in the day. And the original Pony club in town is alcohol free & stays open until 5am on weekends. I just don’t think I can handle that. 😂 Maybe once my two weeks are up at the salon & I don’t get up as early through the week? Of course, I still have school super early though. And I can always go out of town but sometimes I just hate the long drives. Ugh. Pray for me. 😝