Sexy lil pic set I took at work for y’all on Friday (pt 1)! ..

Sexy lil pic set I took at work for y’all on Friday (pt 1)! &&&& “I Am A Dumbass” blog entry pt 2: Saturday night I was high af at work & a lil tipsy & I straight up asked the DJ for for a ride home. (Please read my previous entry so you can follow this dumb shit… 😆) I did this in front of this girl… Like wtffff was I thinking? I can only guess I was thinking he is safe. And I live close. I would pay him for the ride & never speak of it again. And it wouldn’t have been a secret because I asked him in front of her. She made the craziest face when I asked. Yikes. Then when I was in the parking lot, a new bouncer was out there & he left some stuff in the club (I think his keys?) & he hadn’t been paid for the night of work. So I unblocked the DJ for me to call on behalf of this bouncer. He said he’d take care of it tomorrow & hung up on me. I told the bouncer guy I was sorry & what the DJ said. He was pissed. I tried texting the DJ that this guy really needed his stuff & his money but there was no answer. I then tried calling him back. Why? Fuck I dunno. Maybe to see if this guy could get his shit or maybe I just miss him in my life. We did have some good times & I am SO BAD at cutting people off. I guess unblocking him opened a flood gate of emotions about the situation that I had pushed away for months. Maybe I just wanted to discuss what happened? I honestly do not understand my actions. Or maybe I don’t want to. But I definitely know I was *NOT* going to invite him over or any shit like that. My house is a total mess right now & I do not want anyone seeing it. But I shouldn’t have called back. Then that girl sends me a texts asking why I’m texting & calling her side piece. 😂 I explained to her I was trying to help the bouncer out & then I guess I felt ballsy because I asked her why she was upset about it? Hahahaha. Then DJ dude texted me to “keep my same pussy energy I been having”. I said fine. I’ll go back to having you blocked. Period. But I do feel super stupid for calling him that second time. But oh well, right? Worse things have definitely happened when I was wasted. Oh & lastly, in my defense… He was putting on a secret show Saturday night… By playing *VERY SPECIFIC* songs for my break songs before & after I went on stage that were songs we’d watch music videos for here at my house back when we hung out. Like suuuuper specific a cappella prince songs & other rare shit he introduced to me. So he knew exactly what he was doing. It seemed like he was letting he know he remembered our good times together & was trying to remind me too. I know that sounds crazy but he would do something like that because he’s just like that. Manipulative. But instead it got me to reach out to him & it ended up making me look like the bad guy. So he won. Hands down. I really need to stay away from people who I definitely already know are manipulative & unkind. But I am a pushover sucker who loves sociopaths. It’s kinda just my way… If you’d like to here more random stories about my life, let me know! I enjoy sharing personal stuff with you guys. It makes me feel like you are getting to know me in a more private way, & I like that. Hope you do too! 😘